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i already know nobody will see this but me, so…

i have wanted to commit suicide pretty much 24/7 for the last year and a half.

through that course i have attempted to do it countless times.

i’m too scared to talk with a therapist about it.

i’m too scared to talk with anyone i know in real life about it.

i honestly don’t think it’ll help me anyways.

i feel completely worthless.

absolutely nobody’s been there to talk to me.

if that’s the case i wonder why anyone would see this.

honestly just writing this makes me feel like i’m worthless…

...like nobody cares for me.

...like the world wants to pretend i never existed.

...maybe to remind me of the nothing that i really am.

i don’t know if i’ll be alive in the next month.

i’m just keeping this here so people can remember just how worthless i am.